I've had a few people asking me what happened to my blog, and why i stopped using it, so i thought i'd make this post (ironically on my blog) to explain why, and maybe to get back into it. There are a lot reasons why i stopped using it, i'm not going to share all of them because i don't want my whole life on the internet, but this is a few of them.
1.Energy. This seems like a stupid one, but i'm an extremely emotional person which means i'm tired all the time, so before i go to work the last thing i feel like doing is getting dressed up and taking photos.
2.Personality. This blog just doesn't fit with how i am at the moment, whether it's just my moods or whatever, when i made this it was just to be weekly outfit posts and i'm not interested in that. I still want to be a Visual Merchandiser and that is why i started this, but it's just not fitting with how i am just now. I have so many things i want to achieve and this just isn't one of them.
3.Modelling. Not something that seems relevant but it is, but it is relevant for both posts. I absolutely love "modelling" and it's amazing that the girl who barely made it through school is doing something that makes her so happy. However it does have a down side, i have all these people who now suddenly care about my life, and that's cool, be as nosy as you like. The thing is people now expect me to act a certain way, and i'm not okay with that. A lot of people seem to think that i now owe them something or i have to be an inspiration, and i'm not, i'm literally just an 18 year old kid trying to enjoy her life.
4. This is kind of all the stuff that didn't fit into the above categories. Basically this time last year i was in England getting drunk and playing a lot of video games, and while i missed home a lot, fuck i had a lot of fun. This year i'm working, and my spare time seems to be pageant orientated. As much as i love my life now, it's not being a drunk 18 year old, you know? And i kind of had a eureka moment the other day. All my spare time has been thrown into modelling and pageants. I love doing that, and i do love the thought of inspiring people, but i don't love these expectations of me. Basically it feels like I've lost my path a little, and that's okay, i just have to find it again. There's also a lot of other emotional things in my life that i am not writing on this blog, but they've been taking their toll on my happiness.
What does this mean? In truth not a lot.In fact to most people it doesn't mean anything at all. I'm still going to keep modelling because it is the most amazing experience of my life. As far as this blog goes, i don't want to get rid of it so i had a thought, what if i turned it into a diary? Not like a teenage diary, but i can show you an insight into my life as far as the pageants and the modelling goes, with maybe a little fashion thrown in. I have some stuff coming up that's going to be extremely fucking awesome (i don't know if i can tell you yet) but if you wanted i can take you behind the scenes with me.
Lastly i just wanted to thank everyone who's been supportive to me. My life is a bit of a rollercoaster and it's insane to me how many people care. Special thanks to everyone who's given me support as my new photos have gone up, that was extremely scary.
Anyway, that's it for now! Bye xox
If you want to contact me you can get ahold of me on www.facebook.com/babysnakess
Or if you have a question ask.fm/eilidhhox
1.Energy. This seems like a stupid one, but i'm an extremely emotional person which means i'm tired all the time, so before i go to work the last thing i feel like doing is getting dressed up and taking photos.
2.Personality. This blog just doesn't fit with how i am at the moment, whether it's just my moods or whatever, when i made this it was just to be weekly outfit posts and i'm not interested in that. I still want to be a Visual Merchandiser and that is why i started this, but it's just not fitting with how i am just now. I have so many things i want to achieve and this just isn't one of them.
3.Modelling. Not something that seems relevant but it is, but it is relevant for both posts. I absolutely love "modelling" and it's amazing that the girl who barely made it through school is doing something that makes her so happy. However it does have a down side, i have all these people who now suddenly care about my life, and that's cool, be as nosy as you like. The thing is people now expect me to act a certain way, and i'm not okay with that. A lot of people seem to think that i now owe them something or i have to be an inspiration, and i'm not, i'm literally just an 18 year old kid trying to enjoy her life.
4. This is kind of all the stuff that didn't fit into the above categories. Basically this time last year i was in England getting drunk and playing a lot of video games, and while i missed home a lot, fuck i had a lot of fun. This year i'm working, and my spare time seems to be pageant orientated. As much as i love my life now, it's not being a drunk 18 year old, you know? And i kind of had a eureka moment the other day. All my spare time has been thrown into modelling and pageants. I love doing that, and i do love the thought of inspiring people, but i don't love these expectations of me. Basically it feels like I've lost my path a little, and that's okay, i just have to find it again. There's also a lot of other emotional things in my life that i am not writing on this blog, but they've been taking their toll on my happiness.
What does this mean? In truth not a lot.In fact to most people it doesn't mean anything at all. I'm still going to keep modelling because it is the most amazing experience of my life. As far as this blog goes, i don't want to get rid of it so i had a thought, what if i turned it into a diary? Not like a teenage diary, but i can show you an insight into my life as far as the pageants and the modelling goes, with maybe a little fashion thrown in. I have some stuff coming up that's going to be extremely fucking awesome (i don't know if i can tell you yet) but if you wanted i can take you behind the scenes with me.
Lastly i just wanted to thank everyone who's been supportive to me. My life is a bit of a rollercoaster and it's insane to me how many people care. Special thanks to everyone who's given me support as my new photos have gone up, that was extremely scary.
Anyway, that's it for now! Bye xox
If you want to contact me you can get ahold of me on www.facebook.com/babysnakess
Or if you have a question ask.fm/eilidhhox
